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Monday, December 20, 2010

Bitter and Sweet

Bitter Sweet, a compromise between the two extremes. Our lives do not usually fall into two the extremes either, day by day, it is just bitter sweet. However, if one of those days does fall into one of the two holes, it better be the sweet one; otherwise we would sink into despair or sadness comparable to that of a robin who missed the flight to the south.  For we are pathetic creatures. Pathetic. We allow the sweetness to blind us of all else, even just a bit of it will be 20 doses of anesthesia; we freely inflate the happiness to any degree we want. At the same time, we do not allow any bitterness to touch us, look at us, and curse its presence and try to drive the hideous yet harmless feeling out of our sight.  Because we are optimistic creatures by nature, so we think, we abuse the idea by only having sweetness and nothing else; because of it we have a sweet tooth, sweet sixteen, and the infamous "sweet, man!" We praise sweet but we despise bitter; we worship the one with the upper hand and boo the underdog.

Is proper to raise the question now then what is bitter? Why have we dismissed it so often? Because it embodies our fears, our failures, or our not so bright moments.  It follows time after time when the lost of pride or a bet, when lack of achievement finds us in the corner. It break us at times, like a little kid breaks his little candy cane; so arbitrary and so cruel. At least that's how we picture it.

We blindly crave the sweetness and we do not know it is truly an product of our illogical desires. For bitterness builds us, for bitterness shapes us, for bitterness changes us. Without bitterness we would have already lost the hunger for sweetness, thus it can be said that sweetness is born of bitterness, and success born of failures. It wakes us up from desiring more and a better place that never fills us and gives us eyes that see sweetness around us. It rampages in our core and breaks it, crushes it then rebuilds with ever more tenderness and tear. It empowers us in a state of powerlessness, fuels us.  It is not the jealousy, but an awakening. A realization of the goodness we experience, a realization of the blessing we have. Jealousy rises from desires for more and better sweetness that we do not have. But bitterness humbles us and brings us back to who we are re-enjoying the sweetness we already stored but have been long forgotten. This is the sweetness that bitterness gifts us and this is the basis how bitterness changes us, shapes us and breaks then rebuilds us from the inside out.

To this end, if you still reject feeling bitter then try to feel bitter sweet; then you'll find that this the flavor that helps us through what is called life.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Starlight

You shouted in the night
But no one has heard your life
Those beautiful eyes
Have iridescent tears

You were in a phone both
Waiting for a call
Pity those who thought
You might just walk away

Chorus
Your heart is unbreakable
Your mind is unchangeable
The starlight
is all you need for a fight

Those were sentimental words
Your never felt this before
This ray of light
Crosses your heart twice over

Your heart is unbreakable
just as the water flows
Down the milky way
Listen to what they say

Chorus

Your heart is unbreakable
Your mind is unchangeable
The starlight
is all you need for tonight



You were on the telephone
Talking to a ghost
This ray of light
will take the troubles away


I wrote this a while ago. I do not remember the exact circumstances when I wrote this or why, but now it serves to remind me that God is always in control and I can rely on him to fill my thirst and cast my doubts. Now especially, for school is now getting on my nerves and college supplements are putting on more weight. However, I am not depressed, nor am I lost, for I know God will take care of his people and I can pull this through.

Glories to the God above, Amen.