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Monday, December 20, 2010

Bitter and Sweet

Bitter Sweet, a compromise between the two extremes. Our lives do not usually fall into two the extremes either, day by day, it is just bitter sweet. However, if one of those days does fall into one of the two holes, it better be the sweet one; otherwise we would sink into despair or sadness comparable to that of a robin who missed the flight to the south.  For we are pathetic creatures. Pathetic. We allow the sweetness to blind us of all else, even just a bit of it will be 20 doses of anesthesia; we freely inflate the happiness to any degree we want. At the same time, we do not allow any bitterness to touch us, look at us, and curse its presence and try to drive the hideous yet harmless feeling out of our sight.  Because we are optimistic creatures by nature, so we think, we abuse the idea by only having sweetness and nothing else; because of it we have a sweet tooth, sweet sixteen, and the infamous "sweet, man!" We praise sweet but we despise bitter; we worship the one with the upper hand and boo the underdog.

Is proper to raise the question now then what is bitter? Why have we dismissed it so often? Because it embodies our fears, our failures, or our not so bright moments.  It follows time after time when the lost of pride or a bet, when lack of achievement finds us in the corner. It break us at times, like a little kid breaks his little candy cane; so arbitrary and so cruel. At least that's how we picture it.

We blindly crave the sweetness and we do not know it is truly an product of our illogical desires. For bitterness builds us, for bitterness shapes us, for bitterness changes us. Without bitterness we would have already lost the hunger for sweetness, thus it can be said that sweetness is born of bitterness, and success born of failures. It wakes us up from desiring more and a better place that never fills us and gives us eyes that see sweetness around us. It rampages in our core and breaks it, crushes it then rebuilds with ever more tenderness and tear. It empowers us in a state of powerlessness, fuels us.  It is not the jealousy, but an awakening. A realization of the goodness we experience, a realization of the blessing we have. Jealousy rises from desires for more and better sweetness that we do not have. But bitterness humbles us and brings us back to who we are re-enjoying the sweetness we already stored but have been long forgotten. This is the sweetness that bitterness gifts us and this is the basis how bitterness changes us, shapes us and breaks then rebuilds us from the inside out.

To this end, if you still reject feeling bitter then try to feel bitter sweet; then you'll find that this the flavor that helps us through what is called life.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Starlight

You shouted in the night
But no one has heard your life
Those beautiful eyes
Have iridescent tears

You were in a phone both
Waiting for a call
Pity those who thought
You might just walk away

Chorus
Your heart is unbreakable
Your mind is unchangeable
The starlight
is all you need for a fight

Those were sentimental words
Your never felt this before
This ray of light
Crosses your heart twice over

Your heart is unbreakable
just as the water flows
Down the milky way
Listen to what they say

Chorus

Your heart is unbreakable
Your mind is unchangeable
The starlight
is all you need for tonight



You were on the telephone
Talking to a ghost
This ray of light
will take the troubles away


I wrote this a while ago. I do not remember the exact circumstances when I wrote this or why, but now it serves to remind me that God is always in control and I can rely on him to fill my thirst and cast my doubts. Now especially, for school is now getting on my nerves and college supplements are putting on more weight. However, I am not depressed, nor am I lost, for I know God will take care of his people and I can pull this through.

Glories to the God above, Amen.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Happy thanksgiving!


Happy thanksgiving! It's the time of the year where we look back and find those blessings we never thought we had and those that are obviously under appreciated. I would like to give thanks to people who read this blog, one time or another, thank you for your support. I would like give thanks to my mother, who always supported me and taught me valuable lessons of life, thank you very much mom!  I would like to give thanks to my friends in and outside of school, for you have brightened my life and give me laughs and great memories, thank you so much and I am grateful to know each one of you! I would like to give thanks to my teachers, thank you for teaching us. I would like to give special thanks to my school teachers who wrote my recommendation letters and corrected my college essays over and over again, sorry for bothering you so much, Ms, Toews but thank you very much! I would like to thank Karen and Jenni, thank you for helping me with my Stanford application, thank you very much! I want to thank my father for the financial support and visiting us this year, thank you dad! I want to give thanks that my family here and in China is healthy and able to enjoy the wonderful meals. I want to give thanks that my mother is doing great in her school. THANK YOU, everyone!
Mostly importantly, I want to give thanks to Jesus Christ, my personal savior. For you have done great things in my life and without you nothing can be done! For I cherish your blessing in my life and remember your good works. For all the good things come from you, for your love and grace and patience and forgiveness. Thank you Lord!

And with that, happy thanksgiving!!! 

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Confinement

Confinement
Is drilled to the world
The sky is
Closing like the drips

On us

All colors
Fade into black walls
Sunlight
Has left us in the hall

O, ohhhh

Chorus
You give the golden lock a kiss
I know that Ignorance is not a bliss
This earth can't contain us
It's ready to be burst oh ya



This is a short one. I am still looking for the rest of it, or it might just be a really short song. One or the other.

May all the honor and glories be onto you, oh Lord my God!
Amen

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Restart

Ever since I was a little boy I knew
That nothing was impossible
Then I grow up to be more like you
Now I am lost, crossed and confused

I was looking for something I thought I knew
But I lost it all to myself
It was an pitiful fight
No more blood since it has ran dry

One more chorus added to my life
Can it save me from all of my crimes
Oh tell me if this silver necklace
if this necklace is able to shine

Chorus
So zip up my mouth
And start me over again
Let my battery recharge
And my head rewind

I opened my doors and let you see
What a mess have I came to be
I missed my faith and lost the key
What a pity oh what a pity on me

So I opened my eyes to let my heart cool down
There was time when it was over running
To cross the distance of two continents
This is the punishment that I am learning

End Bridge
When that church bell rings and hurries me up
I knows it's time to open my heart
Let us start again
Let us start again


I did not intentionally frame or shape this one; it, more or less, stood out like it is. It was during a guitar secession and with somewhat random words that I discovered this bare, but truthful song. I must say that it is partly a confession to do this piece justice.  I must also say that this is one of my favorites which I held dear to my heart, like a genuine, plain, yet unrefined crystal.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Back before you awakes

Heard a place that's far away
Distance is too far to measure by day
So turn around
Say goodbye and Wave

Gained pride but lost your faith
Ruined Heart in my place
Oh please
Please don't turn away

Chorus
I will be back
Back before you awakes

Thinking of what would you say
When you know that I am on my way
And I will be back
Back before you awakes

Bridge
Walking through sunshine and rain
Going through happiness and pain
I wouldn't be far
I will be back before you awakes

Sing a song now
Let your voice be heard
Don't cry now, love
I won't be far

I wrote this one sometimes during 10th grade. I do not remember what was I thinking or feeling when this one escaped from my pen, but overall, I do like this song. 
College is getting closer each day now, anxiety is a given, but some how, I feel somewhat peaceful. The worst situation is that I have to go back to China, and the best is that I can stay here with a full scholarship. Which ever one happens, maybe somewhere in between, God is always there with me, so, it wouldn't be the end of the world for me. 
But if I do get in college, even though I am only a junior, I think I can do it. 
Praise God and the work he has done.


Monday, October 11, 2010

Something of you

I broke my heart
And it became two
I never Known
How much I have to lose

Crack my shell
And let me stand
All I need now
Is a helping hand

And you came along
Set me on a rock
While I try
To decipher the truth

Chorus 1
This is my cry
For everything I have tried
This my life
That is pieced together

Chorus 2
This is my light
To show me where you are
This is a flight
A flight to your side

I have wrote
letters and words
So you will
Know where I hurt

You have told
and You have come
I turned around
And you I have found

I will not stay
I will not rest
From You my heart
now found my place


This is a song about Jesus and the good works he has done. I really like this one a lot, it really speaks to me. I hope you will enjoy it as much I do. Sorry I haven't update my blog for a while, school have been busy and college application have been taking most of my free time away,  but I will manage to update this blog at least once a week. Thanks.

Harry

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Oh Lord!

I am surrounded yet feel lonely
still trying to fit in
take off the mask that I am wearing
already stopped trying
Oh wait Oh wait
When everything fades away
When she is out of my fate
What do I have left

When Hope starts to run away
What happiness is out of sight
Now where do I look at
Anything could turn the wrong way
But I know this
Lord Jesus, You got my back

Oh Lord Oh Lord
When all the hope has ran away
All I can do is put my self in you
You are my hope and my love
My Savior that is nor of this world

When trial comes
When suffering begins
I will do it for you
Because you died for me and saved my life

This song is especially meaningful to me, as it was served to honor the Lord and second, it was the first set of lyrics that 's used and performed in front of a live audience. It was the summer of 2008,at the South West Bible Camp, talent show night. I was honored to have my friend David to put music to it and sang it. Afterwards, people told me that they really liked my lyrics, thus I was more encouraged to write more and more. And now I can't stop.

and by the Way, I just though of something that could apply to all my lyrics.

All the lyrics have a story behind them.

I will see you sometimes

Just trust me now
Words never fail to shout
Every time you closed your mouth
There's a impending answer

Once or Twice
I have dreamed of you
But it still doesn't make me any closer
Than I used too

Because That world of beliefs
That world of hearts
That world of high times
It's all of you combined

Chorus
Just let me say good bye
Just let me say good night
The world will keep on spinning
and I will see you sometimes

Let me answer your Questions
Let me quiet down your mind
Storms will always comes an end
While the Sun will always shines

So All you will Ignites that Fire
TO guide you where you need to go
You will always fly higher
once you feel the world is yours

Its' a beautiful night
Its a beautiful life
just close your eyes
just let me say goodbye

I havent updated in a long long long time. Homeworks upon homeworks, upon test preparations and college application, sorry, I will try to make it as regular as possible starting now!

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Blue ears

Blue lines match white circles
Blues times goes into black holes
If you hear with those blue ears
I will be here I will be here

When you come to my place here
Where you can set your heart
sing so loud and cry so hard
I will be here with my blue ears

Chorus 
There will be blue fire in your night
There will be blue light 
light up the sky
And I will be here I will be here

I drank the water
You drank the wine
You complained that you don't have anytime
You have to catch the world's fastest line

When the world refused to listen
When your heart can not find
A place to sit A place to stand
I will be here with my blue ears

You have danced you have singed
You asked me one last little thing
Why are you here for  years
I said for you I grow my blue ears


Many people asked me "Why blue?"My answers is that my inspiration from this song came from blue earphones that I got from someone, so this counts as a big thank you.

Monday, August 23, 2010

The forgotten youth


Evanescent youth, come and go
Your entire dream is buried below
Do you still remember that feeling
When your heart beats more than it used to

Do you remember the time
Where you thought you are the king
Do you remember the feeling
When you didn’t give a dame about anything

That your teacher used to say
You need to behave

Chorus
Have you forgot about when you were young
Have you forgot about when thing go astray
That mountain looks bigger than it sounds
 No more excuse no turning around

Now You are mid aged man sitting behind a desk
File and paper has buried your eyes
You know where to go
But  you are going very slow

Chorous again

Oh yes you did (x4)
Haven’t you noticed by now
Nevermind you don’t have any time
But you lost something that have been erased

You know you know how to behave
But you don’t know how to be in a bright place
I can see it in your eyes
Your soul is dead inside

Oh yes it is  (x4)
Haven’t you noticed by now
You know how to behave
But you lost something that have been erased

Do you remember the time
When you are the king
Do you remember the feeling
When you lost everything
But you can pull it through
Running straight ahead is the proof
That you forgot that feeling now

I wrote this down after I was in trouble in school (only one time, 10th grade), out of my bitter resentment towards the judgement of the adults and my praises of the young generation and the youthful spirit we have,  here comes "the forgotten youth"

Traveler




Restless soul
Is free to fly
The coin is tossed
So say good bye

The fruit is gone
And your dream has died
Lesson learned
And no body crys


And The Fire is on
My heart has sung
Look at the clock
Listen to the ticking sound


Chorus
Oh just let me go
Just Let me see
The whole wide world on my feet
Just let me go
And Let me see
What the future will holds to be

Chase through the street
I looked around
Glowing lights shines upon
All the things I have done

Chorus

Don’t let it go
And don’t slow down
This world will be turned upside down ( x2)

Chorus


I want to go
I want to see
Nothing else is stopping me
Isn’t going to  stop me

I like this one quit a lot actually, it was born  in my sophomore year . This song has a bit The killer's Influence, combined with a little coldplay, and mix it up with me, and that's how it happened!. 

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

No Name

Lies of the haunted
Haunts your sleepless night
Tears has been running
Down your flight

Picking every corners
I am searching for you
Send your signals
Oh i will come to the rescue

Chorus
Take you heart
Join Your hand
Raise the torch of star
You are still my pillar of valiant

You stumble into the truth
In front of you
Lies and confused
Oh How hard to ignore

Drown in the noises
Everything is in Haze
I cant stand here in still
I can reach you

Chorus again

Take my hope
Put it in your hand
Use it as a lamp
I will show you how much I care

To the days of quiet life
and the days of Praise
To the birth of lion inside
you are still my pillar of valiant


I wrote that last night, haven't sought of a name? Any suggestions?

Pure Life

I have ringed the bell
wonder if you heard it
Time is running out
Reach to rewind it

Chorus
Honey how could you be standing still
How could you not run towards that higher hill
Bones and guns are left behind
No time for the pure life of mine

That cold cold river
tried to follow you home
Life is for living
Living is for your own

The hot hot sun
Tried to burn you down
Love is your shelter
Shelter from the sun

Honey how could you be standing still
Run towards that elevated feel
Bones and old life are left behind
No time for the pure life of mine

You are a star that rises
Sleepless until you find that spell
Dreamless in you own line
No more pure life of mine

Choices between the old and new
Lies between the unstoppable will
Bones has turned into dust
and I will follow you

I wrote this a while ago, I was searching for inspiration, then i saw something with "Pure" written on it, ( some product, maybe OJ), and that's how this one is born.
Glory to the God Above
Harry

China Town Riot

Take what you can
The night is no longer quiet
You wanted a peaceful life
You never wanted a fight

Lose your faces
Erase the starting line
Maybe there's valiant
Last sipped of the wine

As long as you raise your arms
And Breath the Dawn
Rise is the wave of light
one heart is worth a thousand tonight

Chorus
Waiting for a china town riot
We will no longer stay Quiet
life wont stay on the horizon line
You are the brave and the light

Peaceful life comes from sacrifices
On the edge of losing sight
You found a shelter of silent names
Who or where to listen to tonight

Waiting for a China Town Riot
You throw your fist tonight
And we will no longer stay Quiet
China Town Riot for life

Listen to the voices of Dawn
That's where our hearts are lied
Riot for our loved ones
We fight for what we dream tonight



I wrote this song in a elective class...i wasn't  really paying attention nor enjoying the class... that's why i switched to art. Anyway, this song's title is actually the name of me and Adrien's band, he  thought the title was a funny one but i didn't write a funny lyrics. Oh well.

Monday, August 16, 2010

First Day of Sharing my lyrics with the world

This blog of mine is a idea that I had recently while thinking about how to share my lyrics with my friends more effectively, having a blog sounded like a good solution. A little history first, I have been writing lyrics for almost 2 years now, it started out in boredom and I thought, Why dont i write a song? Everything took off from there and never really came down. I have wrote about 80 lyrics( maybe even more), good and bad, unfortunately i do not have the time to put them all up on this blog, nor am I brave enough to put up the embarrassing ones.  For a bonus, I will tell you roughly what time or year i wrote each one, how recent they are, and the circumstance of  which they are born; usually the pattern goes like this: better lyrics =more recent lyrics. However, its not all true, i have had sparks of genius early on too. I will try to put up new songs every week, if I do not have any, i will share my past creation. Last thing I will say is that i will put up my perspective of the current events occasionally, if time allows.

May God have the glory, and to him I will seek help.
Harry