"Nothing can stay unchanged, fun things; happy things, they can't all possibly stay unchanged. Even so, can you keep on loving this place?"
That was what Nagisa asked herself in the beginning of the Clannad. Change means many things to many people, to some, it might be a promotion, a new born child, a reunion; it might also bring a foreclosure, a funeral. Is it inevitable? To change? Will and can we freezing time like the ice frost the river in the winter? The truth, we can. We can freeze ourselves. We can tell ourselves when we skid on ice that it is and will always be strong enough to hold our weight as the whole lake is frozen. Tell me. Is change inevitable?
No matter how cruel and brutal the winter is, the lake it self cannot be possibly frozen to the very bottom. That is the reality: we cannot stop time, it flows underneath our false confidence, smirks and ignores the thin layer of ice which we tried to cage it in.
I was never really a fan of changes. My latent talent of ignoring reality is fearsome. It might due to the dramatic childhood, an adaptation of sorts. Not to lament online, I am conscious of the fact. Yesterday, my mother is officially remarried. My finger in front of the keyboard as I typed the last sentence. What do I feel? What do I do for her? What do I do now? Those are the question that I am asking, since I have closed my eyes on reality easily, my emotions do not catch up the stream of reality time.
Is change good? Is change bad. I believe that things change for a reason, though sometimes you cannot see it yet. But how do I summon the strength to wake my self to the change and continue walking upwards is the question. This is indeed an intrusion and confusion time period, to adept to the changes and properly react to them. I believe that is how you move forward, and that is answer that Nagisa was trying to find.
"Just find them. Just find new fun and happy things. Come on, Let's go." is what Tomoya told Nagisa.
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